Hmms, firstly, i am fucking head over heels in love with hubby. Now than i realise that he love me so much. Hais. He wasted $40 trying to catch marie the cat for me at marina bay.And i can still remember whenever im with him at marina bay, and whenever he couldnt catch any toy for me, i would scold him. Hais, seriously, im so touched by his actions cos we had a big quarrel today. Supposed to accompany him to buy his new year clothes, but beause of our quarrel, i didnt want to meet him. Laogong, sorry ok? Pls forgive me. I really believe that you love me now. Sorry.

Anyways, went to Plaza Singapura with hubby yesterday, and yes, its our tenth month together. Time really flies and im waiting for the day whereby both of us will be standing in a church hall with the wedding bells ringing and many pretty little flowers flying around, and a priest will than say ' You are now pronouned husband and wife ' and after that, we would go away in hubby`s car decorated nicely with many cans connected at the back and a big balloon that reads 'Just Married'. Hmms, when i was with hubby yesterday, i wasnt really happy. Cause firstly, i kept thinking that hubby has changed and doesnt love me that much anymore, than while we were sitting outside plaza singapura, i cried and when hubby asked me why i cried, i say nothing. Than after asking lots of times, he assured me that his feelings didn`t fade for me. I felt better after that and we went to Mark`s and Spencer to buy chocolates and the chocolate that looks like an ice cream is OH-SO-HEAVENLY! Hahs,wanted to head to Far east actually but hubby was tired so he came to my house to sleep. Yepps.

HAPPY TEN MONTHS HUBBY! <33

Hubby,
I`m really touched that you spent $40 trying to catch the cat. I asked you why you wasted your money on me and you said it was because i liked the cat. Hais, seriously, im really very touched. I know that im always being over sensitive, always doubting your love for me. Just a little change from you and i`ll think that you do not love me anymore. But do you know that i act like this is because i really cannot afford to lose you? I asked you why whenever you talked to me, all you talk about is your school and your friends. Its because i get jealous easily and all i wanna hear from you is about ME ME AND ME! I feel jealous whenever you talk about your friends and not me. Perheps you talk about me in front of your friends? =x Hahs. Anyways, im really happy to come this far with you and i wanna go further with you, be it ups or downs, i wanna be the girl that will always be by your side. Although we had countless quarrels, i want you to know that my love for you is true. I have never loved anyone so much before and pls do not ever leave my side because i wouldnt know what i would do without you and im also sure i wouldnt be able to find another lover sweeter or more precious than you.And if my greatest fear ever ,happens, and that is losing you, i will still leave my heart with you and you would also take a very very big portion in my heart. Even if ever, one day when we both find different lovers, i wouldnt love him as much as i loved you. I really hope the day wouldnt come at all and i want the whole world to envy us, Why? Because we are so loving. Also, i wanna be that old wrinkly woman holding your hands when we both grow old, strolling in the park with you and learing taiqi quan. hahs.Thanks for always being so sweet to me,always being the one there for me whenever im down and trying so hard to make me smile, the one that always gives in although im the one that is in the wrong, the one that cares for me,the one that changes so much for me, from a flirt to one that is true to me,the one that loves me and the one that let me taste what love really is. Thank you hubby. Love you lots! <3 Muacks.

Samantha and Marcus Forever. ("v")v")

Hmms, boring saturday today because hubby has got to go down all the way to teck whye for a songka and tht means we would not be meeting today. Also, hubby`s school starts on monday which also means we would not be able to meet that often anymore. So i told hubby, on days tht he is let off early, he comes and find me, and on days tht im let off early, i`ll go find him.

Went to watch 'I not stupid too' with hubby yesterday. Quite nice lah the show. Took neoprints with hubby. And one thing, when eating with hubby, i bought a drink, drank 1-2 mouthful and passed the drink to hubby and he drank it all up without asking me if i still wanted it. (-___-") PIG!After the movie, went rounding with alan and sarah. After rounding, send hubby home than headed home. So fucking tired, removed my make up and called hubby up. After talking to him, fell asleep straight away. HEHS. Love him so much now, even if he doubts my love for him, i`ll keep trying to prove it to him. I know it isn`t easy because i treat him so bad and i have a fucking bad attitude. Hubby, pls trust my love for you is true ok? If not, i wouldnt have stayed on with you for so long despite the many quarrels we had. Trust me ok? Love you lots my baby! HEE. Muacks <3

Samantha <3 Marcus

Hais, currently quarrelling with hubby on the phone. Tears keep falling and my heart is in a mess. I realised i`ve changed alot over the past few months. Hubby doesnt trust me now and he always thinks im flirting. He doesnt even understand how im feeling right now. Yes, i`ve said i`ll change for him, im trying, maybe he doesnt see it nor feel it, but deep inside of me, im struggling silently. Everytime we quarrel, i would try to take a step back and apologise.I dont know what i must do to show him i love him, he doesnt believe my love for him is true. Hais, im really very sad and confused but who can i turn to when hubby is not even there to understand how i feel ? Everytime i try to talk to him, we would start quarreling. Seriously, i really hate to be like this. I wanna change back to what i am last time, but does hubby think its that easy? He feels i`ve changed but i feel i`ve not. NO ONE CAN EVER UNDERSTAND WHAT IM FUCKING FEELING RIGHT NOW. Everytime i would think how i can go about changing my darn attitude but it never seems to work out. I know this fucked up attitude of mine might really weaken the relationship between us but i dont want this to happen at all. Im really trying my best to change.. cant you see? hais... its okay, i realise that no one ever understands what im going through now. I might look happy on the outside, but deep inside, NO ONE knows how im feeling. Everyone may think hubby and me are such a loving couple, and i wished we were without all this dumb little quarrels.. Hais.. ( :: "-" :: ) Sorry hubby. Forgive me kkaes? And PLS PLS believe my love for you is true, dont doubt me pls. I really cannot take it when i really ove you but you say i dont. Hais.. =C

Hmms, know i`ve not been updating the past few days. Mainly because all my time is spent with my laogong and secondly, its because im LAZY. Hmms, watched 'The ghost of mae-nak' yesterday. Quite nice, but fucking gross. Went to bugis with laogong, sarah and alan. SO SO FUCKING CROWDED AND HOT. Only managed to buy a jeans. Still left 1 top to buy before im done with my new year`s shopping. Also, bought blusher and make-up remover from DODO CLUB. Wanna replenish my make up but sadly i dont have the money to do so. There`s school tomorrow and i fucking dread it ! Laogong`s school starts on 23 january and ends around september if im not wrong. Darn jealous, school starts later and ends earlier ! HUMPF! Gonna revamp this whole blog, not the layouts but rather change some pictures and upload some new pictures. Lots of pictures to upload, but im so so lazy. Haha. Shall find some time to do it but currently is laogong laogong laogong for me ! Teeheehee. Cant wait for chinese new year where money will come to me. Hehs. Laogong, sorry for this short posts, dont know what to write le. Love you loads. Muacks

Yesterday went Junction 8 with hubby to eat sakae sushi, YUMMYLICIOUS! Afterwhich went to watch 'Wallace and Gromit ' with hubby.Caught the midnight show. Stupid hubby went to play with OSIM i-desire massage chair. So many people were looking at us, damn paiseh! The movie was quite okay, boring at times but still watchable. HAHA. Hubby and i love the rabbits, DAMN CUTE! haha. After that headed home.

Fucking school has started. Time passes really slowly in school, timetable became so fucked up and on monday, schools end later than usual, makes me dread going to school on mondays. (-___-") Hubby have still been spending lotsa time with me even thou school has started and im really really happy. \(^-^)/ TEEHEEHEE. And hubby`s here to stay today, teeheeheeeeeeeeee! WE ARE SO HAPPY TOGETHER! LAOGONG WO AI NI!

<3 LOVE LOVE